Ok well he's gone

[Pure14K]

Hi Everyone. I posted a topic yesterday about putting my dog of 12 years to sleep & I didn't have to make that choice, he went on his own. All day yesterday he didn't even get up from his bed or even acknowledge that I was there. When my fiance got home at 3:30pm from work, he got down and held him in his arms for 2 hours until he passed on at 5pm last night. Our appt to get him euthanized wasn't until 6, so he passed on his own. This is the first time I've had to experience death (nobody/nothing I've been close to has ever died before) and I really don't know how to deal with this. I hurt so bad. We got rid of his bed & toys already, can't even think about seeing that stuff, but oh I miss him so much. How do I begin even getting through this? Any suggestions?

[primabella]

I'm so sorry about this. But your dog is in a better place now, pain-free. I have never really experienced death either (luckily) but when my mother's dog died, I just cried about it. I guess the best thing to do is to let out all your emotions (don't keep them bottled up inside) and then remember the fact that he is in a better place. Remember the good times. And don't be afraid to speak to any of us on PT. Feel free to PM me if you would like to get your emotions out or anything.

He went when he was ready. Now he is watching over you. I wish I could help more.

[Chrisanne]

I am so sorry for your loss. I would have to agree though, the best thing would be to let it all out. We are all here for you.

[dappledoxie]

I agree as well, let out your emotions and don't be afraid to talk to us, we will be here for you. I am so very very sorry for your loss and I will continue to think and pray for you! ((Hugs))

[Jodi]

I'm so sorry Nicole. I'm sure glad your fiance was there with him. I know this sounds cliche but time really does help your heart to heal. Try to think of the good times you've had with him and remember that he's not in pain anymore and is running around in that big ol field in the sky. I know you're sad....I wish I had some magic words to make it better. Hang in there.

[SharonM]

I'm so sorry, Nicole - my heart just aches for you. I too wish I had some magic words - but I don't.
Take care, and remember you can let it all out right here - we're all here and we'll all listen ...

[kittygurl823]

I am so very sorry Nicole. My heart aches for you as well. We are all here for you always.

[capnsweets]

Losing a pet hurts so much, it breaks your heart. We know how it feels and we understand it. We can't make it hurt less but we are all here for you and our hearts go out to you.

[RSbunny]

Nicole everyone is right....just let all of your emotions out. It's hard when you lose someone/thing close to you gor the first time cause you don't know how to deal with these things. Time does heal all wounds and even though he will forever be in your heart one day you'll be able to smile about something that he did without crying and that is when you know you are on the road to recovery. Nacho was the first dog that I have ever lost and I bought a photo album and put all of his photos in it, collected his dog tags, collars, fave toys etc. and put them all in a really nice box with his ashes. No-oneknows I've got him but he was happiest with me and I'm not ready to let go of him yet so he stays under my bed. Just keep crying girl....the tears will stop when they are ready. *hugz to you*

[Scarlette]

I am so sorry for your loss!

I went through the same thing with my brother's dog. She was very old, had arthritis really bad and was losing control of her bladder. I know she felt really bad and was embarrassed every time she had an accident. The decision was made to have her put to sleep but he couldn't bear to take her in and have it done. He asked me if I would do it and I agreed to do it that Saturday. She died the day before I was going to take her to the vet. In a way, I kind of felt better that she died on her own terms and that she and God had made the decision, not me. Does that make any sense? I know I felt bad when I took one of my own dogs in to be put to sleep due to health issues. I still feel bad about it because I made the decision and I felt like my dog didn't have any say in the matter (even though he was really starting to suffer). I know I had done the right thing, but it still hurt and I still felt guilty.

I'm sorry to ramble on about my situations, but I do know what you're going through. Feel free to share any of your feelings, pm me if you want.

[Laurie]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Feel better soon.

[puppylove103]

Oh! I am sooo sorry for u'r lose.

[Deja]

I'm so, so sorry for your loss I know there are no magic words to make you feel better, I wish there were. Let the tears come as they will. Jodi is right, time won't erase all the pain but time will help you heal.
He will always be in your heart. We are all here for you
There are no rules on how to grieve, just let it happen. I wish you didn't have to feel that pain.
You were lucky to have each other, hold on to the good memories and let the people around you hold you up when you feel like falling apart.
I'm so sorry

[Becki]

I'm so sorry Everyone has given you great advice. Something else that helps me is to love on my other animals even more

[Soapaddict]

I'm so sorry for your loss... I know it must be painful. We are all here for you if you need to let out your emotions (a whole lot better than bottling them up).