I know what you mean BlackStar.
My biggest fear is that she's mad at us for not doing anything sooner. We didn't know. It's hard to look in the cage and not see her there. And it comes at a time where really, nothing has gone right.
We didn't have her long. We had her only a short year. Granted, she gave us three beautiful babies, I worry about what is going to happen to them. I know, they're really not babies anymore, they're 8 months...
But I worry that they're going to be depressed. I know they know something is wrong. But, they're fighters and I think they'll be ok.
I know I won't be ok for a long time, if ever. I miss her like you can't imagine. I just fear that she doesn't know how much she's loved. I pray she knows this. I know God is taking care of her in heaven, and she's with Snowball's baby.