This was written by Bourbon the lady that has spent years refining the bml diet (Bourbon's modified leadbeaters) and has had many rescues pass through her doors.
Boy I really love my person, but i miss her. She brings me good stuff to eat, I can hear her sometimes, but when i finally get to the door she is gone, I don't see her anymore. She used to take me out and play with me all the time. I don't know what happened.. it wasn't like it was all at once, things just started happening, and before I knew it I was sitting here in my cage all alone.
When I first got here, boy I was scared, she took the time for me to learn that she was an okay person, she would bring me lots of treats, take me out everyday and carry me while i slept. She would give me little treats when we would go out on our outings, and sometimes give me good things to drink from her straw. She used to show me to different people, but never let them scare me. I always felt real safe when I was with her. She used to let me run around in her car while she drove and laughed at me, while i sat on her hands, and climbed on top of her head. I would hang by my back feet from the top of the roof and look at her eyes. She would always call me Silly. Sometimes I would just poke my head up, just to see her. I loved her so much, she would pet my head and i would go back to sleep. She would let me run around her room while she just sat and watched me. Once in awhile i would run up to her just to tell her i loved her, and she would give me a treat. We used to play lots of games.. with feathers, balls, straws strings and she had ropes that she would let me climb up and down. Everyday she would bring me a new toy to play with. When I played in her room i would climb to the top of the curtain rod way up high and glide down to her, I remember her laughing sometimes when I would miss and hit her face. Gosh we used to have fun, In fact i was hardly ever in my cage,I really grew to love her so much. I miss her, I miss all the fun we used to have. Now she only comes in to feed me while I sleep. I never get to see her much anymore. I wonder what I did? Why doesn't she love me anymore? Am I not cute enough for her? Did she find another buddy to have more fun with? What about me, doesn't she know I love her? Doesn't she care about me anymore? I sit here at night and just watch her sleeping, I remember how she used to pet me and i would go right to sleep, the feeling i had of feeling so safe with her, The way I loved her...I miss the time we would spend together. the fun we had, the way she laughed at me sometimes. I used to feel real special, cause she would carry me with her during the day, she would take me places, now the only place i go is here in my cage. Sometimes I get so depressed, I don't know what to do. She doesn't buy any new toys anymore, so all I have are these old ones. Why would she make me sit by myself and feel this way? does she even know how i feel? would she care? can't she just once look at me and see in my eyes how much i miss her? Can't she tell that i don't feel like playing in my cage all alone? I don't feel like eating, everytime, i try to eat, I remember her giving me treats and playing with me. I hate feeling this way. Does she care that I am even here? What will happen to me? I get so lonely without her. All I get now is these old pictures in my mind of her laughing, smiling and acting like she loved me. Did she really love me at all? was it just an act? How can someone forget they love someone?
written by Bourbon