yeah i don't mind having a therapist. i've gotten good a logging things away then pulling it all out when iget there. my man helps me by writing on paper what i'm venting about. when i get upset like i do, i blank, everything, i've been in mid sentence and had my mind just disappear. then i bring my book to my shrink and it helps me remember what to talk about. it also helps me remember what bothered me, and gets me feeling the way i did so they can see it. i do look forward to going, i feel a little like i'm 5 running to my mom or something, but whatever works you know? sometimes i just don't know what to do with myself so i find something that needs fixing. swinging a hammer feels sooooooo good when you're pent up (i.e. my degu cage lol). i usually don't know what sets me off, but that doens't mean it's not obvious, it's just not to me. i'm sure i might have negative thinking processes, b ut my mind flies so fast, i think in colours and emotions, not words pictures or people. I'm not a patient person either. when i buy gifts i give them right away. so i have to shop on christmas eve lol. so back to therapy, its' not bad. it's like making friends, you might go through a dozen people before you find one whom you feel really understands. some might help you in some ways, and others in other ways. best advice i can give is be honest with everyone AND YOURSELF. you have to accept that you're feeling the way you are, then accept that you need someones help, just like if it were diabetes or high blood pressure. a doctor's a doctor's a doctor. if i've learned anything in my journey so far, it's that denial isn't just a river in egypt.